The past two weeks I have heard so many mentions of the limitations of language when it comes to conveying ideas and concepts in our class. Last week we discussed the monumental task of trying to capture the full scope of a natural scene with just adjectives and metaphor. This week we read and listened to Francis Webb’s description of the near impossibility he felt trying to get his intended message across. What chance do us beginners have!!!
I realised I have recently made an honest attempt at this (although my subject was somewhat darker) and would be curious to see how I went. I suffer from anxiety and depression and I have been under attack quite a lot lately by my inner demons. One particularly rough day I felt an overwhelming urge to draw this nasty son of a bitch, but sadly realised that I have NO drawing ability; so I decided to use the tools I have at my disposal; words.
I wrote the following poem and think that I captured this horrid beast in all its ominous glory:
Huge claws wrap around my middle
Crushing my insides
Huge mouth lowers onto my head
Biting my skull
Sharp pointed teeth pierce the skin
Puncture the bone
Stabbing my brain
I cannot see a body
This monster hangs on my back
It doesn’t look angry
It doesn’t look happy or sad.
It looks insatiable
It looks ravenous!
To my amazement, less than a week later I saw a cartoon on Facebook containing an image that depicted, what I believed, was my own personal monster! I guess I will always have to deal with this insidious goblin, but it was sweetly soothing to see that I was not alone. I am personally awed by the similarity, but only I can know what was in my head. Of course it is not exactly the same, but what it is doing is so exact it’s eerie.
I would be interested to hear if the words I wrote produce a comparable image for you readers.